All Dark Places: AM Cummins interview

Last but not least in my recent series of interviews with fellow All Dark Places authors, it is my pleasure to introduce you to the unfeasibly talented AM Cummins. As well as writing, she also hunts ghosts. No, really.

Give a short tease about what happens in your short story for All Dark Places.

My story in All Dark Places is titled The Harrison Farm. It’s about a young couple that moves into an old house and must learn a few old secrets before it’s too late.

What inspired your short story?

I love a good ghost story! So much so that my husband and I go ghost hunting when we find the time (mostly on vacations).

What do you find scary?

A dark backstory that doesn’t make sense until the big reveal at the end. I love to question and theorise why something spooky is happening throughout the story. I’ll admit also that I jump at loud noises or something unexpected, but in the end, I just don’t find that scary.

Have you experienced anything at all like a horror story in real life?

I have, actually! I even wrote a short story inspired by my experience: Adoption featured in an anthology e-book, Shadows of the Spectral. I, of course, changed a few things for entertainment value. But the story of the haunting is 100% true.

Why do you think some people are drawn to horror stories, and others are repelled by them?

A good horror story will stir up emotions. Sometimes those emotions can bring back haunting memories of personal experiences. I am a horror fan! When fear is in the air and the blood starts pumping, I know I’m alive.

To what extent are your characters based on you or people you know?

In this story, not at all unfortunately. I picked random pictures of people off the web and wrote my characters based on personality traits I thought they would have. The creation of characters is what drew me into writing.

Do you know your ending when you write, or do you start and see where the story or characters take you?

I know what direction my story is heading. I’ve tried to be a pantser, but then you spend too much time in the editing phase to my liking to fix all the holes. So I love to have a general (and negotiable) outline and let the story lead me to get there.

What is the best thing about being a writer?

I enjoy the creating part. Starting with nothing and making something. It can be a character, a story line, or world-building.

What is the worst thing about being a writer?

The second draft is the worst part for me. I have embraced the editing process completely. But once you take your baby, the manuscript you poured your heart and soul into, and give it a once over…Yikes! It can be soul crushing sometimes to realise it isn’t as perfect as you thought it was. The good news about that is you don’t have to face it alone. The writing community will give you just as much love as you show to it.

To what extent (if at all) do you agree with the statement “write what you know”?

Sure, writing what you know is easy. But nothing great came from easy. I’m a firm believer in pushing outside my comfort zone. My goal is to be the best writer I can be and you don’t do that by playing it safe. My passion is writing fantasy, but I’ve dabbled outside that genre. It was hard, but worth it.

Are you promiscuous or monogamous with your genre of choice?

I am all over the place in my writing. Of course, that doesn’t mean I publish everything I write. Currently I have been published fantasy and sci-fi stories, and now horror. I’m tackling romance next.

Which writers inspire you?

All of them, even you Simon! Writing is not easy. It can be frustrating and stressful sometimes. With deadlines, writers block, and marketing being an author is a lot of work. I applaud anyone who works hard to tell a story.

What are your future writing plans?

I am currently writing my first series to submit to a publisher. I devour series as a reader but always felt intimidated of them as an author. Challenge accepted!

What advice would you give someone who tells you they want to be a writer?

Write something. The internet is full of rules and advice about writing. It can become overwhelming. To find out if you honestly enjoy the process, go through it. Put your pen to paper. Rinse and repeat!

For more about AM Cummins and her writing, check out her pages on Amazon and Goodreads here and here respectively.

All Dark Places is released on the 30th of October and can be pre-ordered here.

All Dark Places: Anna Sinjin interview

Herewith the second interview from my series featuring fellow authors contributing to the All Dark Places anthology. Welcome to the wonderful world of Anna Sinjin. She may look harmless, but her mind is responsible for some seriously twisted terrors. You have been warned…

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Give a short tease about what happens in your short story for All Dark Places.

One day, a man finds a mirror at a garage sale and brings it home to his wife as a surprise. Unfortunately, there’s more to the mirror than a simple reflection and, soon enough, they’re seeing things in the mirror that shouldn’t be there.

What inspired your short story?

We recently bought our first house and have had quite a time furnishing it without spending a fortune. We’re not as creative as the couple in the story, but my husband and I did watch DIY videos for flooring/bathrooms/etc in preparation in case we bought a fixer-upper. Thankfully, those skills went untested. I also thought, what an awesome idea if we went to a garage sale and found something wonderful that turned out to be cursed? Well, obviously, it wouldn’t be awesome for us, but it certainly had potential as a story.

What do you find scary?

To be honest, I’m afraid of the dark sometimes. It’s probably because I have all these thoughts about monsters and demonic entities living in my head. I mean, the clown from It could be hiding under my bed, ready to grab my ankles. Or maybe I might see the red eyes of a critter from Critters shining at me from down the hall. Or, if you’d rather a more realistic fear, I walk barefoot in the middle of the night when it’s literally pitch black. What if I step on a furry spider? These are thoughts that will more regularly stop me in my tracks when I’m coming back from the bathroom. What if that next step makes spider contact?

Have you experienced anything at all like a horror story in real life?

Yes, I have. There are times I’ll hear noises that no one else will hear. It doesn’t happen as often now as it used to. Once I woke up in the middle of the night and saw a shadowy figure standing next to my bed. It felt bad. Very Bad. I woke my husband up, but when I looked back, it was gone. Other times, I’ll catch things out of the corner of my eyes or feel things that I can’t see like someone hugging me. All of these things are explainable, so I’m not sure what I think about them. Call me crazy if you like. I do all the time.

Why do you think some people are drawn to horror stories, and others are repelled by them?

Horror is my True Love, but my husband avoids it like the plague. I love the thrill I get when I read/listen/watch a good horror story. It’s like being on a roller coaster! Your adrenaline is pumping, and you’re desperate to know what happens next, what’s causing everything, and how it will all end. My husband, however, says it’s too close to real life. There’s enough in life to scare the poop out of people, so why would they deliberately scare themselves with horror stories? All those stories do is remind people of the bad in the world.

To what extent are your characters based on you or people you know?

Except for one unpublished book and one published flash fiction, none of my characters resemble me or anyone I know. In the currently unpublished book, the characters are all based off of people I was around at one point in my life, including myself. None of them remained true to life, however, and quickly made a beeline to fiction when the horror began.

Do you know your ending when you write, or do you start and see where the story or characters take you?

A bit of both. Usually, I’ll play with an idea in my head for a bit until I’ve got enough that I can write notes for. Those notes can get pretty vague. As I write my notes, the story unfolds. Sometimes, I’ll start writing before I’ve reached the end of the notes and sometimes, I’ll wait. That’s the fastest process for me. Other times, I don’t wait for notes and just hit the keyboard, letting the story pour from my fingertips. This is only typical with short stories. More and more often now, I’ll do at least a portion of the notes first before I start writing. It saves time and makes each writing session more productive.

What is the best thing about being a writer?

Diving into my own personal worlds and watching them come to life. I love it when this idea in my head comes alive on paper. Suddenly, it’s no longer just an insubstantial idea. Suddenly, it has life… like Frankenstein’s monster. Except, unlike Frankenstein, I don’t abandon my creations. I show them love and, hopefully, introduce them to the world.

What is the worst thing about being a writer?

Not being able to talk to anyone about my writing. I’m supposed to be able to talk to other writers, but I find I can’t. The problem is that I feel supremely stupid talking about my writing. I’ve tried. I open my mouth to talk about it, but end up floundering without really having said much. Pitching ideas is a nightmare for me.

To what extent (if at all) do you agree with the statement “write what you know”?

I semi-agree. Bram Stoker never traveled overseas, and yet he did so much research that the reader believes he went to the Carpathians. Do I need to have been in a haunted house to know how to write about one? No. I know fear, I have an imagination, and I have access to information. That’s all I really need. You should always know about what you write even if it’s only book knowledge. Make sure to double check anything you get through Google though, because it might not be true.

Are you promiscuous or monogamous with your genre of choice?

I’m flagrantly promiscuous. Currently, I write horror under this name and fantasy under another. Hopefully, I’ll be able to add cozy mysteries under a third name.

Which writers inspire you?

I don’t think any writer actually “inspires” me, but there are those I’ve looked to for guidance so to speak. Stephen King’s “On Writing” hit a good cord with me.

What are your future writing plans?

Haunted houses! However, my fantasy side is attempting to steal the spotlight. My genres don’t share me very well, so they’re currently fighting to be the next project.

What advice would you give someone who tells you they want to be a writer?

Be prepared to work work work without much return. Your significant other may or may not support you in your endeavour. This is normal, so try not to hold it against them. And remember to write for yourself and enjoy what you write. In the end, you’re the only one who matters.

Check out Anna Sinjin on Amazon here.

Check back tomorrow for the final interview with my fellow authors in the All Dark Places anthology, featuring AM Cummins.

All Dark Places is released on the 30th of October and can be pre-ordered here.

All Dark Places: Hui Lang interview

Hui Lang is a dangerous, disturbed and bloody good writer. He also prefers to only be seen when manifested as a wolf (hence the picture below). Our short stories rub shoulders in the upcoming horror anthology All Dark Places and I was brave enough to interview him for this blog. Or should that be foolhardy? You decide.

Give a short tease about what happens in your short story for All Dark Places.

The Mark of the Spider is a pulp noir horror fiction set in San Francisco 1925. It’s a story about private eye Marlo Price who is drawn into a high-profile murder. It’s a race against time when the Stars of Carnage and Madness align.

Dark Secrets and Hidden Pasts is about a lantern bearer, Samdel Thatch, who is searching for an artifact that will secure the release of his elven wife, Lyra. However, when him and his sister-in-law are trapped in a dimensional snare called the Half Rift, they’ve warranted the attention of Samdel’s former goddess at an abandoned inn.

What inspired your short story?

For Mark, it was Call of Cthulhu (both the table-top RPG and stories) along with fast-action paced serials from the 1920s and 1930s. For Dark Secrets, the nature of just how insidious evil can be and who it affects formed the basis of that story.

What do you find scary?

I won’t say what personally scares me, because there will be shitload of assholes who will flood my FB page with pics of it, then I’ll need therapy for months. However, I know common things like pitch darkness, closed-in spaces, something crawling on your skin that you have no idea what it is, that’s pretty scary stuff.

Have you experienced anything at all like a horror story in real life?

Encountering people who suffer from mental illness and where they go completely batshit crazy in a public setting is about as scary as things I’ve witnessed in real life. I have walked in a pitch dark woods on a lonely night before. That certainly gave me a sense of heightened awareness.

When I was a kid, my dad took us fishing to some lake in the middle of a swamp when we lived in Florida. We saw the police boats out on the lake looking around with their lights. We were on the boat pier when we heard branches snapping. Whoever the cops were looking for were with us and not very far.

Why do you think some people are drawn to horror stories, and others are repelled by them?

Fear is a great emotion to experience because it does many things to your body. It’s a safer way than experiencing pain which tells you your body is working. With fear, your memories are more real, your experience is more real, and you go through a bit of a rush. You remember your nightmares with vivid clarity more than your most orgasmic dreams.

For others, fear is a trigger. They’ve had trauma and they need a dose of fear like an accidental pregnancy. We live in a society where there is already a lot of fear, some people would rather just come home, open a book and read something happy. I certainly don’t blame them when they desire to have as little to do with horror as possible.

To what extent are your characters based on you or people you know?

None on real life. But I do know Samdel Thatch quite well as he’s the main character in Book 3 of my Rise of Evil Series called the Lantern Bearer’s Quest.

Do you know your ending when you write, or do you start and see where the story or characters take you?

Yes, I always know the ending when I write. I am a plotter. I have will plot out my story anywhere between four to six times before I actually sit down to write a story. However, I have frequently deviated from it often or end up cutting significant parts of it. The Mark of the Spider lost half its original plot due to word limitations and I could only use a third of Dark Secrets and Hidden Pasts.

What is the best thing about being a writer?

Reading reviews. Knowing I made someone cry after they finished my story. Being forgiven after someone reads my story also is a great experience too. Reading a dedication to you after you’ve helped someone significantly with their work.

What is the worst thing about being a writer?

I won’t be making any money at this.

To what extent (if at all) do you agree with the statement “write what you know”?

Ever read a story that had dragons in it? I read stories that had dragons in it. Lots of dragons. We can add elves, magic, gnomes, and undead in those stories too. Now, I don’t know about you, but I don’t think dragons exist in real life, but still… Someone stopped and wrote about them and here we are. If people wrote what they know, then there is a lot of fraud out there regarding dragons.

Are you promiscuous or monogamous with your genre of choice?

I am a motorcycle clubhouse whore when it comes to genres. I prefer fantasy, but I will write and read anything. I want to be the writer who can write in any genre at any rating. 2019 will have several new genres from me.

Which writers inspire you?

Frank Herbert, Robert Jordan, Tracy Hickman, Margaret Weis, and Glenn Cook.

What are your future writing plans?

2019 is shaping up to be a busy year for me. I will be participating in five out of the six planned anthologies from Dragon Soul Press. I hope to revise and release Fallen From the Stars, and the first three books from The Rise of Evil series while working and finishing Crown of Dragons (Book 4). I also plan on writing a trilogy. Lastly, I have about a half-dozen flash fiction pieces I plan on releasing on my FB page.

What advice would you give someone who tells you they want to be a writer?

  1. Set realistic goals if you’ve never really written before. If you feel like you have a story in you, take a writing class. Learn. Practice. Write short stories so you can build endurance to write longer ones. Writing is an endurance sport.
  2. Get. Feedback. On. Your. Work. There is an expression that your first one million words will be crap. True, but don’t make the first word after your million crap too if you’ve never gotten feedback. When you get it, don’t get defensive, don’t argue, and don’t be asking for criticism just to be validated.
  3. Read your favorite successful authors and emulate their writing style and patterns. Over time, you will develop your own and become an author in your own right but you need to learn from a master before you become one yourself.
  4. Get yourself a muse. Someone you can talk to about your work when you feel like you can. I have several authors whom I frequently collaborate on ideas with.
  5. Leave your ego at the door. Some people are going to read your work and mouth off your work sucks. You can’t please everyone, but if they tell you why your work sucks, stop, and pay attention. I’d rather have my colleagues tell me something is bothering them about my story than to just ignore their feedback and read the 1-star review that echoes the same sentiment.

For more about Hui Lang and his writing, check out his writing on Amazon and Goodreads here and here respectively.

Over the next couple of days, check back here for interviews with my other fellow authors in the All Dark Places anthology, Anna Sinjin and A M Cummins.

All Dark Places is released on the 30th of October and can be pre-ordered here.

BIG NEWS: The Spectre of Springwell Forest to be published by Dragon Soul Press

I am very pleased to announce my next novel, The Spectre of Springwell Forest, is to be published by Dragon Soul Press this December.

Spectre of Springwell Forest sinister wood - for blog headerNeedless to say, I am utterly thrilled at this news. Having a traditional publisher has been a wonderful, eye-opening experience, and I am very excited to see where things go from here. My previous novels have all been self-published with varying degrees of success, but it is wonderful to now have talented publishing professionals working alongside me.

The Spectre of Springwell Forest is a mysterious, ghostly, gothic nail-biter. The story involves a young mother who is strangely drawn to a sinister painting of an abandoned railway tunnel. If you enjoyed my previous novels The Birds Began to Sing or The Thistlewood Curse, you’ll definitely enjoy this one too.

In the meantime, don’t forget I also have my short story Once in a Lifetime coming soon, as part of the All Dark Places horror anthology, also published by Dragon Soul Press.

All Dark Places is released on the 30th of October.

The Spectre of Springwell Forest is released on the 20th of December.

Once in a Lifetime to be published by Dragon Soul Press

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I am thrilled to announce that Once in a Lifetime has been accepted by Dragon Soul Press for inclusion in their upcoming horror anthology entitled All Dark Places, to be released this October.

Once in a Lifetime is an existential dread short, inspired by an existential dread nightmare. I’ve always been of the opinion that bad dreams are better than good dreams, because they provide great inspiration for writing. Besides, there’s always that disappointment when you wake up from a good dream and find out that it wasn’t real.

Needless to say, I am very pleased. I will announce further details on the blog soon, including precise release dates, the cover reveal, interviews with some of my fellow authors, details on release launch events and so forth.

My brain needs a break

My brain needs a break. Here’s a scary picture of me in brain meltdown mode.

IMG_0660(1) Given the rather excessively productive year I have had so far (first drafts on two longer than usual novels, lots of editing on earlier, currently unreleased novels, and a couple of short stories), I have decided to take a short break from writing and from posting on this blog. However, I will be back in the first week of September, and I will still post film reviews of any films I see at the cinema.

In the meantime, if you’re a regular visitor to this blog, or are stumbling on it for the first time, why not buy or download one of my novels?

I write in a variety of genres, so here are five that might interest you:

Folded Valley coverChildren of the Folded Valley – By far my most popular novel to date, this tale of a man looking back on his life growing up in a strange cult has over eighty mostly rave reviews on Amazon, and seems to have struck a chord with a lot of readers. It even seems to have got under the skin of people who didn’t like it (eg “Disturbing, distasteful and fascinating all at the same time” was one “negative” reader comment). I’ve also been told it’s my most “personal” novel to date, whatever the hell that means, although to be fair it is partly inspired by some of my own experiences in a cult during the early part of my life. Check it out here.

 

Uncle Flynn_CoverUncle Flynn – A story about overcoming fear and the dangers of mollycoddling disguised as a treasure hunt adventure, this is my second most popular novel, and again, Amazon reviews are mostly raves. It is aimed at all ages, so don’t be put off by the “children’s book” label. For example, one reader said “In this day and age I sometimes find myself reading books like this unaware. I loved it and I’m nearly 69 years old. Uncle Flynn is a real treat.”

Read more here.

 

The Birds Began to Sing_1600x2400_Front CoverThe Birds Began to Sing – A nail-biting psychological thriller about a wannabe writer entering a mysterious writing competition in a remote country house, this will satisfy anyone who loves a gripping, sinister narrative with a big twist ending. The reviews on Amazon are unanimous raves, with one reader commenting: “I kept guessing, thinking up various theories but never really sure which one would solve the mystery. As it turned out, none of my ideas were right!”

Click here for more.

 

Echo and the White Howl Cover 10 (FINAL)Echo and the White Howl – An animal fiction adventure about wolves in Alaska, mixing dirt-under-the-paw revenge story realism with a dash of the metaphysical. Tonally it is akin to something like Watership Down, and just as much aimed at adults as children. Here’s what one reviewer had to say: “The wolves bring to mind Jack London as well as George Orwell’s Animal Farm, but Dillon does it his own way, as always, with the spiritual/religious features that are common in his work.”

Click here for more.

 

LvsHonour 1600 x 2400Love vs Honour – Teenage romantic drama isn’t a genre I typically I dabble in, but this novel is something of an outside curiosity compared with my usual work. It details a tale of star-crossed teenage lovers with a religious twist, as the protagonists try to appease their religious parents by pretending to convert to Islam and Christianity respectively. A tangled web of deception ensues, building to a much darker final act that some readers think is brilliant and some readers absolutely hate. Why not have a read here and decide for yourself?

 

 

Happy reading, and see you in September.

Update on current projects

2018 is more than half over, so here’s a sort-of mid-term report on how the year is shaping up for me so far.

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Ravenseed – The first few months of the year were spent writing this Dark Ages set fantasy novel. Even though I have yet to test it on any Beta readers, I’m really very pleased with the results. A brooding, melancholy tale of knights, sorcerers and enchantment, Ravenseed simmers with love, lust, betrayal and revenge. However, alongside the Dark Ages narrative is a parallel framing story set in the present, featuring a journey that echoes the quest in the ancient past. It was a very tricky novel to write, but I honestly think my hard work paid off.

Peaceful Quiet Lives (title to be confirmed) – This week, I have just finished making a few final adjustments to the first draft of this dystopian novel set in a future America. I have set out to satirise both sides in the so-called culture wars, and at this point I honestly can’t tell if I succeeded brilliantly, or if the novel is a crash and burn failure. Perhaps looking at it in a few months with a fresh eye and the feedback of Beta Readers will shed a more accurate light on what I actually have here.

The Spectre of Springwell Forest – This ghostly, gothic nail-biter (which I wrote in the early part of last year) will be my next release. The story is set in the 1970s, and involves a sinister painting and an equally sinister abandoned railway tunnel. Full details to follow soon. Watch this space.

In addition, this year I have written a short story which I have just submitted to a publisher in the hopes that it will selected for a horror anthology entitled All Dark Places which his due for release this October. If my story is chosen, more details will follow.

Speaking of short stories, I’m currently writing another, a romantic fairy tale, to submit to a different anthology due for release in December. In fact, I’d better get back to it…

Why I am an egomaniac

I am a writer, which makes me a bit of an egomaniac.

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I don’t think that is a bad thing, and here is why. To honestly, truthfully believe that someone would want to read whatever it is you have written, you need to be possessed of a certain egomania. You have to believe you are a great writer. In fact, I personally believe every novel I write is the most imaginative, exciting, gripping, funny, relevant, thought-provoking and moving novel ever written, whilst I am writing it.

Of course, amid these dizzying heights come the dizzying lows (in my case, George McFly Syndrome), and invariably it is unlikely at best that I have written the greatest novel of all time. But I still have to believe that someone, somewhere will want to read it. Otherwise, it becomes very, very hard to persevere.

So, accepting that writers are egomaniacs to a greater or lesser degree, how can that ego be managed so it doesn’t become insufferable? My personal recommendation is twofold.

Have a very, very thick skin – This is vital for when Beta readers come back with critiques of your work. If they are worth their salt, they will not sugar-coat things and they will be severe when they need to be. I once had a Beta writer tell me to put a particular novel through the shredder (I have since agreed that it should never see the light of day). If you fail to listen to Beta readers (they may be wrong, after all), be aware that if they are correct, you are adding vanity to folly by exhibiting your flawed or failed work. In that case, be fully prepared for scathing reviews. Incidentally, I try to wear bad reviews on my sleeve wherever possible. Not everything I have published has been a roaring success, and in some cases, I have ignored Beta readers when I really shouldn’t have done. However, it is a learning process, so I take all that on the chin.

Have a very dark, self-deprecating sense of humour – This is more for the benefit of those you live with – wives, husbands, children, families, flatmates and so on. The ability to laugh at yourself will be a saving grace and a fine counterbalance to the egomania necessary to actually finish a book in the first place. Great books have been written by people who didn’t possess the ability to laugh at themselves, but I bet they were really, really horrible people to live with. If you are going to be a melodramatic flounce, at least try and be self-aware enough to realise that even if you are the greatest writer of all time, a bit of humility goes a long way, and the ability to laugh at yourself goes even further.

Now go and read my books. They are all absolutely bloody brilliant.

In the shadow of Nineteen Eighty-Four: Writing my current novel

71Y5qibEolLI have recently re-read George Orwell’s dystopian milestone, Nineteen Eighty-Four. As ever, I came away from it stunned by the satirical and chilling narrative, and deeply alarmed at its prophetic insights. However, I also experienced something I hadn’t expected: Intimidation. This book has been called one of the greatest novels of the twentieth century, and sometimes the greatest. The bar for this kind of fiction has been set very highly indeed, not just with Nineteen Eighty-Four but also other classic dystopias like The Handmaid’s Tale, Brave New World, Fahrenheit 451, A Clockwork Orange and so on. Therefore, what business does an upstart like me have trying to write a dystopian future shock novel? Can I really add anything of value in this genre?

Whatever moments of George McFly Syndrome I may experience along the way, I honestly believe I can. I am about two-thirds of the way through what has become one of the most challenging and exciting novels I have ever undertaken. I have no idea if the finished product will be brilliant, terrible, or something in between, but nonetheless I am writing it with a passion unprecedented even by my standards.

The title remains a secret for now, but the story is set a little way into the future, in America. It is, broadly speaking, a dystopian drama about the so-called culture wars, satirising both sides and their various subcultures. The “religious right” and “liberal left” are equal targets of my ire, and common sense is utterly disregarded by both during the events of the story.

This makes it sound like I have an axe to grind, and perhaps, for once, I do. But I don’t intend to lash out at the reader in despair. Nor is this intended as a political statement of any kind (heaven forbid). What I hope for this book is that it will be gripping and dramatic; at times darkly comic, absurd, thoughtful, moving, tragic, and perhaps yes, a little bit angry. But I hope the overall feeling the reader is left with is sympathy for the plight of the protagonist, rather than a sense that they are being preached at. After all, in the past I have been very vocal about what can happen when writing a story with a conscious agenda. The last thing I ever want to sound like is condescending, finger-wagging or preachy.

More on this novel once it is finished, polished, and finally published. Watch this space.

Love vs Honour – Did I fail?

LvsHonour 1600 x 2400In 2006, I wrote Love vs Honour, which I then self-published nearly ten years later, in 2015. The novel is a sideways step outside of my usual world of thrillers, horror, science fiction, fantasy and children’s adventures. Teenage romance isn’t something I dabble in, but when the premise of Love vs Honour occurred to me whilst stuck in traffic during an interminable bus journey, I felt the story was too good to ignore.

A tale of star-crossed teenage lovers with a religious twist, Love vs Honour begins as a conventional romance, with a holiday attraction leading to something more serious. Then it takes an unusual turn, as protagonists Johnny and Sabina try to appease their religious parents by pretending to convert to Islam and Christianity respectively. A tangled web of deception ensues, building to a much darker final act.

Reviews have been mostly positive. However, at least a couple of people have told me there is a big, gaping flaw in the centre of the story: Johnny is not likeable enough.

Romantic fiction is not my area of expertise, and it seems this factor was a colossal oversight. The typical male lead in romantic fiction is handsome, dashing, charming, intelligent, perhaps roguish and flawed in some way, but above all he should be desirable. By contrast, I wrote Johnny as a realistically conflicted, angst-ridden teenager. He has a dark past that colours his view of the present, sometimes in negative ways. Like many teenagers he can be selfish, sulky and not entirely sympathetic. His statements are sometimes exaggerated, and are very much his side of the story (for example, he is quite scathing of his parents who, despite their more extreme religious viewpoints, are kind and generous people). Obviously he isn’t without redeeming features either, and as the novel gradually reveals dark elements from his past, he perhaps becomes a person with whom it is a bit easier to sympathise.

However, I think my critics might have a point. Even if Johnny is a realistic and believable character, he simply isn’t likeable enough as a conventional male romantic lead. By contrast, I think Sabina is far, far more appealing, and whilst it is plausible that intelligent girls like her would fall for someone like Johnny, in a romantic novel it can lead to a feeling of the story being unbalanced. I think in retrospect I was wrong to strive for realism, and should have erred more on the side of genre convention.

I’m still very proud of Love vs Honour as I think it does contain interesting characters and thought provoking scenarios. In that sense, it is best viewed as a drama rather than a romance. I also stand by my ending, which provoked a little controversy as well. However, if I were writing the book now, I would make Johnny a much more appealing character. Experience is a great teacher, and in the unlikely event I try my hand at teenage romance again, I will bear in mind what I have learned.

Check out Love vs Honour here, if you are curious.